So, uh, Project Demo? How's it going? I know we haven't been hanging out much for the past week, but...
We had good times, though, right? I love that scene with the stars. And your characters. M always makes me laugh.
No, don't jump to any conclusions! This isn't a break up. This is just...
I still think about you. All the time. Well, occasionally. I just think if we had some time apart, some time to do our own thing, see other people, maybe...
Okay, fine, I'll be honest. Sometimes I hate you. I hate that your climax is so stupidly complicated. I hate that your antagonist is so multi-faceted he makes my head hurt. I even hate that M doesn't always seem to have an arc. Yes, I know I said she's funny... but she's got to have an arc!
Sometimes I wish I could bundle you all up and throw you on the fire and be done with you!
Yes, yes, I realize you're saved on my hard drive, my back up hard drive, my email... But that has to mean something, right? All that violence? You know I'm not typically a violent person.
Sure I loved you. I mean... I love you! Of course! But you're always so dark and depressed. It's like a funeral when I'm with you, a funeral every day. Where's the hope?
What? No! Of course there's no one else. How could I? I BELIEVE in you. You're a beautiful, powerful, complex story.
No, I mean complex in a good way.
Okay, fine! There is someone else! Someone fun! With younger characters! And it doesn't wear black all the time, and it isn't mopey! And this time I'm going to do it right. I'm going to plan everything at the beginning, so I know exactly what I'm doing, so there won't be any overly-complicated climaxes and characters without arcs.
No, I won't get bored with it! I won't lose my creativity in the process! Because this project is fun and fresh and original and...
But don't leave me, okay? I'm not sure about this. Sometimes I want to be dark, too. And serious. And I wasn't kidding earlier, when I said that thing about believing in you.
What does it mean that I'm such a violent, two-timing user in my head?
Anyway, that's the plan. I'm hoping this time away from Project Demo will be a good thing, and I can come back and pull together all these final strands and send it out. But in the meantime, I AM playing with something new.
I'm calling it Project Fun.