So, last I blogged, I was hovering on the edge of despair. I had made a long list of everything wrong with my ending, and was convinced I would be revising Project Demo for another gazillion years.
I remembered Anne Lamott's lovely Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life. For those of you unfamiliar with her book, here's the quote to which the title refers:
"Thirty years ago my older brother, who was ten years old at the time, was trying to get a report on birds written that he'd had three months to write. It was due the next day. We were out at our family cabin in Bolinas, and he was at the kitchen table close to tears, surrounded by binder paper and pencils and unopened books on birds, immobilized by the hugeness of the task ahead. Then my father sat down beside him, put his arm around my brother's shoulder, and said, 'Bird by bird, buddy. Just take it bird by bird.'"
I told myself to stop hyperventilating, and just work on my ending, step by step, bird by bird, until I worked through my list of everything wrong with it. Maybe it would take a gazillion years. But maybe not. And I wanted to try.
So for the past week and a half I've been working through my list. And slowly but surely I'm beginning to cross things off.
For an in depth look at revision, here's what I did last Sunday:
- Re-read chapter 32 to make sure Saturday's changes worked.
- Added one sentence to chapter 34 to remind readers of a sub-plot character.
- Added another sentence to clarify the main character's emotional motivation.
- Reworded several paragraphs in chapter 34 so my additions flowed within the text.
- Asked myself a hard question, paced while I thought about my answer.
- Needed a break. Went back to the beginning of chapter 34 and added a sentence to clarify the day's date.
- Other fiddly stuff: I found the appropriate accent mark for the name Jacqueline du Pré (a real life cellist mentioned in Project Demo). I did a project replace to switch all my Pre to Pré.
- Discovered pressed had become Préssed. Did another project replace.
- Found a place in the text where I could insert the answer to that hard question I had been pondering.
- Worked a piece of information into some dialogue.
- Highlighted a piece of dialogue I wasn't sure a character would actually say so I could find it and think it through later.
- Journaled a few more lines of dialogue, to clarify character motivation, then typed them in.
- Asked myself a few more hard questions about what my character was feeling. I wrote the questions down, also to think about later.
That was 85 minutes. I stopped, closed my computer, and made breakfast.
It was only later that I realized my friend Keren on Twitter had been right to mention the fixing stage. The changes I'm making aren't massive. I'm not rethinking whole plots and characters. I'm just adding text, clarifying motivations... I'm doing the little stuff that makes a novel polished.
Remember that list? As of today I've crossed off about 75% of it. Does it work? I'm not sure, but I imagine it's closer to working. And I've still got to write in the changes to my magic system.
But maybe I will finish revising Project Demo sometime before a gazillion years have passed. Bird by bird. Until the next crisis of confidence.
Where are you at in your writing? Does my revision process look anything like yours?
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